consciousness of desirability
an interest
effort (small)
response. with it smugness
excuses
lead. maybe also some apathetic ego feeding
something resembling self predicted victory
just a little sympathy
growing concern. also fully developed strong affection (maybe achronologically placed)
self blame
futility, desperation. insanity. trappedness.
an effort at disentanglement
nostalgia stabbing solitude guilt... & a sense of wrong
disarmament
desire
surrender
peace
treasure
bliss with a tinge of fear/insecurity
(my feet are big and flat. enough to trample underfoot)
(a prayer against)