A realization has been perplexing to me, but it persists and is pressing to be more concrete than I at first thought it might be: people often say exactly the opposite of what they want to say.

Sex education is a very good TV series with beautifully thought out characters who are complex yet consistent. There are actors in it I can never like in other roles, they feel so true to their characters in this show. 

And I started reading Alain de Botton's How Proust can change your life. It is funny, amusing, revelatory and engaging.

Both are reinforcing my realization.