I am drawn to anxious people. Another someone (younger) I have felt an inexplicable sympathy toward, told us she has OCD.

Do I feel like I'm their balm, or does their anxiety make me feel more sane myself? I think I like how they relax around me.

I got more honest. And now she's pushing me away. It hurts but is also making me sick. 

Some people are paralyzed by the thought that we will all die someday. But mostly we don't let that occur to us.